love, I need to see you soon. After wednesday, when all my papers will be done and everything, I really need to see you to talk talk. I may be teary-eyed and incoherent and filled with so much doubt, and I need you to quench all these insecurities, once and for all.
You have no idea how happy you make me feel. And so afraid at the same time.
L



B,
I don't know how to lose my best friend for the second time, I really don't.
I rebuild the best-friendship on the assumption that this will never happen again, that you will still be my best friend for the next ten year.
maybe I'm wrong.
and I cried after I hang up the phone and I've never felt so lost and exhausted before.
and I couldn't call you and talk to you like I used to.
I'm so sorry that I'm selfish and ignorant and oblivious
so uhm yeah
this is awkward